Forgetting to Remember

Hmmm. What to do what to do. What to say what to think. Who knows.

Do you remember? You must. You can't have forgotten. It's just not possible. Some things in your life affect you so greatly but still you can forget. But yet there are things that will never flit off into the back corners of nothingness. Those unforgettable memories. Of those times. Those moments. That time. It's not something someone can really forget. They make you cry, laugh, smile, drink and drink endlessly deep into the night to solve the ever present insomnia cause by remembering. Don't tell me you forgot. You can't. I haven't. I can't.

But I'm okay with it.

I remember it and I'm okay with it. I agree with it I guess. I understand that life is a series of events surrounded by people. People come and go. Leave without a trace or leave with scars left behind. Those are memories. Not people. Shadows of people. Footsteps. You are like the sand and the longer they stood in you. The deeper they impacted, the more you remember.

But I'm okay with it.

May sound like I'm trying to convince myself. It does sound like that. Even to myself. But... I've never had to convince myself. Of anything. Of everything in this world, I'm only sure of myself. I'm sure. So sincerely sure. Incredulously sure, that no doubt can cross my mind that can't be shattered at first sight. I am me, I am I, I am what I am and will always will be. And therefore...

I will always remember. I wonder if you think of me. If you remember. If you don't, then of course, I shed no tears. I may stop smiles, lose sentences, but never stop breathing, never lose sleep. Slowly but surely, I think I will forget I remember. One day I'll forget to remember, and then in another day as equally unimportant, I'll remember that I forgot. And maybe I'll stop and think, I never really forgot, I just haven't thought.

Do you have something you remember? Something you forget you remember at times. Everyone does. Everyone.

Remembering To Forget,
ShadowlessTomorrow